In My Silence

I've been looking for you, you who I've been staring at the mirror

But every time I think I'm close you only seem more distant than nearer

I've been searching for a way, a way to understand the man but he seems lost forever

And the reflection seems to blur through the distance because I'm somewhere in there and no where altogether

I see so many faces and I wonder which one is the man looking back at me

Am I just the fragments of the imagination of others or is there more man in me.

Is there more to the eyes that stare back at me?, Is there the promise I believe and feel in me?

 There's promise somewhere between those blurry lines the picture is just forming and so far it's  been a  survivors disguise.

 All I have is a hint and I'm still riddling out the riddle of me 

Sadly the only thing I can make out of these pieces is that its not really me

What does he fear? Why don't he reveal himself to me? Why all these trials and why so much of mystery?

Somedays he feels like me and most days like a stranger

He builds himself up and in a second and the next instant destroys himself like an invader

Constantly looking and searching for how I truly should feel, while everything feels like a mistake and at the same time who I should be

I've been you through the moody Mondays and the distracting escapades

I've been you through the constructive hard days and the destructive mad days

I've been you through the pains and the gains

I'be been you when you were promising and when you failed

But nothing of what I am feels like its close to who I truly could be 

And at the same time I have never felt so intimately close too this version of me and I have never felt more stranger than the stranger still hiding in me

The man behind the dreams and the puppet who's still held down by invisible  strings

The man searching for his wings while the winds so turbulently kick him off his heels

I am all of these and much more than what you can see cause the real me is yet to be revealed

Been trying to understand you but I guess I'll never figure you out 

Cause you're so rare and unique, the one like no one around

So when the journey gets lone and tiresome 

I just close my eyes and lose myself in my silence 

Where unfelt words lighten up

Sparking emotions that blows through me like a gentle breeze

And in the dead center of that silence 

I become the miracle I'm always meant to be

Suddenly I recognize the man in the mirror

While I drift away in my silence keeping this secret hidden in me forever

Be That Man

 

I want to be that man who is very relentless in his life

The one who won't give up even when the odds doesn't seem right.

I want to be that man who walks a different path 

A path no man has taken before,  a path no one dares to walk

I want to be that man manly like the man who gave him his life

The one who isn't afraid of what life throws at him 

And enjoys each moment specially the challenging times

I want be that man who never shies away from a fight 

But picks them wisely as he knows his strength and he's tamed his demons quiet

I want to be that man that looks at his challenges with a smile

Even when his enemies outnumber him, he's a whole other animal if provoked so they better hide

I want to be that man who's gentle and kind

And yet flirts with danger as he is also a monster in his mind

I want to be that man who's calm headed and wise 

The one who creates wonders and leads his clan to greater heights

I want to be that man that turns the wheel of destiny 

The one that achieves the impossible in-spite of all the misery

I want to be that man that stands against unjust minds

A man not just with a voice but also of action when its the time

I want to be that man that takes it one day at a time

Living life to the fullest even when life seems boring or a struggle to survive

I want to be that man who lives no fake life or a lie

The one who is bare as his soul just like the Gods intended unique creative and passionately alive

I want to be that man who's given the hardest tests

The one that's given those challenges that prophecies speak off in old tales and legends

I want to be that man who stands for something in his life

The one that brings the change that everyone was waiting for a long time

I want to be that man who's full of honor

The one who lives by a code and his word, humble and grounded

I want to be that man who is all do or die

The one that will go the distance where others won't even try 

I want to be that man who isn't afraid to stand alone

Even when the masses won't call him their own 

I want to be the man who's tried all and went the whole extend

Even if he meets failure at the very end. 

I want to be that guy who never gives up

Always hungry and ambitious chasing dreams bigger than all the universes put as one

I want to be that man who'll move mountains

The one that works wisely conquering his limitations

I want to be that man building his own empire

An empire for the generations that comes after he expires

I want to be that man who made his life worth living

Enjoying his time on Earth as long as he lives in it.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                

Pain

 

This pain is beautiful, it hurts, but it feels right.

This pain is beautiful, it's tearing me apart, but it's fixing all the lies.

This pain is beautiful, it burns, but it cleanses my insides.

This pain is beautiful, it's brutal, but it is making me love me for all I am even the dark sides.

This pain is beautiful, it traps me, and it helps me to find my wings so I could fly.   

This pain is beautiful, it blinds me, and then teaches me to trust all over again through those darkest nights.

This pain is beautiful, it betrays me, and it helps me find my truth hidden in my mind.

This pain is beautiful, it kills me slowly, and slowly it heals me back to life.

This pain is beautiful, it suffocates me, and frees me from my sins weighing me down in my life.

This pain is beautiful, it moves me to tears, and then it releases the demons plaguing my life. 

This pain is beautiful, given by so many people, and yet it teaches me forgiveness than to fight.

This pain is beautiful, it confuses me, and then reveals the path made just for me in this life.

This pain is beautiful, it numbs me of any emotion, and then teaches me compassion through its eyes.

This pain is beautiful, it pains me, until the pain itself feel like love from the divine

This pain is beautiful, it fights me from the person, I'm no longer in my life.

This pain is beautiful, it feels like my enemy, but it becomes a friend that saves me time to time.

This pain is beautiful, it is so painful, that it feels like pleasure sometimes

This pain is so many things expressing itself through my life

Sometimes I think I'm just pain but at the end of each journey it gives me the bliss I deserve in my life

This pain is beautiful cause it is tearing the illusions and the lies

It is setting me free everyday in a way I cannot describe

Sometimes it breaks me down when I not accepting of its trials

It makes me bleed in ways just to show me that I'm destined to rise for the skies

This pain is so beautiful sometimes it makes me cry

Not because it pains me but because I have something so special guiding me through my life

Like an angel sent out from the heavens for me he takes me by the hand and makes me wise

He is tough love but love at it's purest with my best interest in it's mind

This pain is beautiful sometimes I feel I cannot live without it in my life

It's making me a man out of a boy like the Gods wanted it as I'm destined for greater tides

This pain so beautiful I have no words to describe

Guess you need to be lucky like me chosen to carry this burden a miracle in disguise

A blessing sent from the ancestors giving me wonders while I survive

I hope it stays with me always cause sometimes I feel its my father 

Helping me from the heavens showing the way making me shine

This pain so beautiful it is a gift more than a pain 

It is the compass that is guiding me through my doubts and the bad phase

It is the fire from which I am forged tough and rugged through its fire storms

It makes me bold and strong through its cold and brutal frost bites

I have been shaped and reshaped me by all its seasons through out my life

This pain is beautiful can you see it too

Are you also someone in pain that seems to betray you

Open not your eyes but your heart and see, and then you'll realize what it is and how to set it free

You gotta embrace it as it is the only solution to your twisted life's deeds

The only thing showing you the truth of you and how to be free

So pay attention this one last time, learn from it and grow and conquer your life's trials

Stare at the mirror in marvel and wonder of the man you behold in your eyes

And thank the pain that set you free without asking anything for a price

This pain is beautiful it is the best thing in my life

Embrace your pain before it's too late and be the person who you are destined tin this life.

In Between Moments

Been staring at these blank pages wondering what to write

Been struggling to put some words in and arrange it such that it sounds wise

Lately I've got nothing, am just drifting, waiting for the chips to fall in line

During these in between moments I've got nothing to say and write

I've just got things to do and watch destiny unfold my life

What do champions do, I wonder, what goes through their mind

How do they handle these moments that makes them wait for a while

While waiting itself is not what they want and waiting they can't tolerate inside

And their body feels like moving when staying still would be wise

Is there a right thing to do when your whole being can't stay still?

I wonder if it is a test or just time taking a piss

To mess up the momentum you have built

Every new year is a reality check, it's terrifying to realise another year has gone and put to rest

Cause it makes me wonder of life and the journey taken

That  journey that has never found its destination

And the negative thoughts come flooding back into my mind

Another year to start things over, will this be the year I ask my mind?

Or will it be just another year that goes by.

Been chasing this dream for quiet sometime

Somehow it feels like the moment has arrived 

And I am nervous more than I can realise

What would have great men felt in these moments

What would be the thoughts that ran through their mind

I wonder what would they have focused in these in between moments

How do they turn the sober situations over and come out roaring

Turning every moment to their advantage soaring high

These in between moments they mean a lot

They are important more than all the moments you have fought

Cause there is no bigger addiction than winning in this life

So every moment is a step you take towards that moment to be surprised 

And these in between moments are the hardest to survive

Cause in these moments everything is beyond your control

And your left behind impatiently waiting for the story to unfold

Will it set me free? Will it turn out all right? 

Will it take me to the heavens and too unthinkable heights?

Can I stand tall?, Can I breath my first and be super fine?

Cause I've holding my breath for quiet sometime

I have seen many moments that have taken me close

Have overcome many disappoints more than you know

Have had the almost, Oh God, I almost had it moments

Hence these in between moments are not pleasant to be honest

It makes be nervous just out of habit

I must stay still or I might ruin it

I wonder what a warrior does in these moments

Got to teach myself to stay calm and live in the moment

With shields and spears and sword in hand

I wonder what happens in him when the bells of battle rang

Is he calm and quiet to march into the unknown?

When dead itself is waiting for him and the odds unknown

These in between moments always finds the worst of me

I hope this year I would conquer it cause I've been dancing with it 

And it already feels like an eternity to me

 So I walk into this year wondering where I'll be

Will I finally make it and will I be set free

For I yearn to rise from the depths that I've fallen

And finally give the closure to all these in between moments

Letters To My Sister - (Part 2)

 

Life is not going to have any surprises until you live like it's going to surprise you, most people live like it is going to disappoint them and so they don't believe in themselves enough, to take a risk on their dreams. They settle for a practical life, a life of uninspiring sacrifices and while they die slowly on the inside so does their dreams. Have you ever wondered what life is? Have you ever wondered why you are here. What is the point of all this if we are going to die one day? Why do anything at all and just be? Why do we follow traditions and customs? And why try to fit in all the things in that small space calling it a life? What does, me being your brother really mean? Why me? What role do I play in your life? What am I meant to really do? But yet we share this special bond, an unexplainable bond, and sometimes I think you will be the only person that makes me feel like I'm not alone on this crazy planet. And no matter how I turn out to be, you would be the only one to see me as I truly am. Having this thought feels very encouraging, having you as my sibling and knowing you will always have my back makes me brave, it gives me comfort in so many levels. Even though we are so far away, and we hardly meet or call, I know deep inside me, if I fall you would catch me. 

Maybe a sibling is a guardian angel, who are physically present through our life on this planet. A mirror that constantly remind us, who we truly are. A voice that comforts, a hand that supports and mainly a guide who shows us our roots when we stray too far into the burning sun. Maybe this is what I'm meant to be for you, someone who'd have your back even when your own back has turned against itself. Someone who lifts you out of your rut, and teaches you how to get out of it. Someone who smiles and celebrates your victories, someone who challenges you and inspires you to be your best version. Someone who tells you to always follow your dreams and take all the chances you have in this life. I wonder if I am even close to these things. Life has seasons just like the planet. There is a season where you are a child, a season where you have transformed to a woman, a season when you become a mother and a season where you grow old. But unlike the planet we face seasons in different ways, the one I explained is what our body's experience. Our mind to faces different seasons and we experience life also collectively through different seasons. Times when it feels cold and bitter and everything feels like heartache, seasons where you feel the Gods sitting in the heavens are testing you. And seasons where life seems to be sailing smoothly.

These seasons are important, it is through these seasons you discover who you truly are on the inside. And be brave, to be this person no matter how the world reacts. The world and all its people are put there to either test you or encourage you, you need the haters so they keep you on your toes, so that you keep growing. You need your supporters so that they keep cheering you when you're fighting these battles in life. Always be yourself, you were intended and created by a divine force to be the way that you are. Know this person and love this person before you let anyone else love her. And be unapologetically brave to be this person, without needing to change anything for someone else's happiness. It's sounds so simple but in reality it is a hard thing to do and if you choose to be this version of yourself, the truest version of who you truly are then you will never feel alone or feel lack in any way. Love being yourself, this is what makes the experience of life magical. And no matter the season, if you can manage to be yourself with a beautiful dream that you pursue relentlessly, life will be full of surprises. Be the person in the room who constantly grows, someone who quietly grows through the seasons of her life. Remember real growth always happens quietly and it is only destruction that makes all the noise.

Life is too short to carry burdens, unburden yourself, take responsibility only for yourself and hold others to theirs. Let go of the ways and thoughts that no longer work for you, become more and more aware that each day is truly a gift. Though the road ahead might seem long and weary teach yourself to live in the moment and enjoy the journey you have taken. When you have achieved something, dream of something bigger, if it doesn't scare you it isn't big enough. Don't wait for the odds to be in your favour, just act, move and let the world know you are on your way. When life gets overwhelming on a Monday morning and it seems like you are handling too much to bear, relax, take a break and then start over the next day. Drink coffee watching the sunrise, go take a swim at the beach, take long walks, go on drives playing your favourite songs and sing them out loud while you wait at the red light. Dance while you cook, let your daughter watch you, let her watch her mother, let her watch a woman and show her what it is to be a woman by being that woman. Have some wine on a Friday night and look at the stars in the skies and know this, that I too would be sitting on the other side of the planet with a beer in my hand holding it up to the skies knowing that life is turning out better than we have expected. Celebrate like there's no tomorrow and no matter where our paths take us, live not to impress, but live to have powerful moments just to experience it. Stay humble, stay kind and live life like it really matters, live like you're part of a chance this world badly needs. 

The Mind And The Heart

 

Your mind is either a trap a prison that holds you back

Or it's a key that opens doors and portals to potential you thought you never had

Your mind is yours to tame or it would roam the earth aimlessly in vain 

Waiting for a master to come and command it 

Until then it is imitating life from what it learns from others

You might think that it's you who's planning life

But you'll exist just to react to worldly life 

Waiting for a God in the heavens to shower some mercy

While your begging him to shower his blessing and make you worthy

Not knowing that you're drifting through time waiting for an invisible hand to act

While in reality you're pretending to be a happy man and leaving everything to chance

Waiting on your blind faith, fears and ignorance to save your life

Blaming away responsibilities that should have helped to build your life.

Your heart is a fool that clings to stay innocent 

Like a small child it is playful in its existence 

It's going to get you hurt a million times

And the poor thing won't learn until it's too painful to realise

While you're busy running around playing its innocent games

Your heart needs to stop chasing fantansies

And stop playing its foolish games

It's vulnerable cause it is dependent and needful for love

Love from the world all around it which is his greatest concern

Never thinking of finding fulfilment within itself

It searches for its validation from everyone else

While the whole world on the other hand is quiet the opposite

It was designed to bring pain and hurt it 

The lonely heart now retracts and builds walls to protect him

From the very world it seeks so bad and its acknowlwedgment

Hesitating to love again because it's broken and sad

It sleep behind those walls miserably intact

Tame your mind and one day it will be your most loyal weapon

But then let it be a tool to build a mesmerising life 

And not be a puppet of the ego and its lies

 Get creative, let the skies be your limit, it is a tool you can build anything with 

Take control of it and give it its direction

So, it doesn't have to wait for someone else to give it instructions

Listen to it and then forget it all

Speak to it and quietly let it solve

Let it know it needs to look no further

For you are there to guide it through its darkest hours

Let it grow and open new doors

Let it roam around and explore

Teach it the ways you wish to build your life 

And let him be free to grow unlocking your potentials hidden inside

Set no limitations to stop him and build a will to fight 

Breaking barriers that block him and strengthen him to be wise

Your heart's a bit tricky, it's trusted to much, it's seen its share of heart breaks 

Under the pain it lays drunk, forgotten how to trust and who to depend

Its build a great wall around it and it's retreated within 

Only way to win your heart is win its trust

Let the heart know that's its safe and this you can do only when you love what you have become

No need to worry on the past and linger in what must be forgotten

Need to mend new ways and learn from the pain that need no more courting

Give it love that it seeks from the outside, let it be content inside your chest 

With no need for attention or the acknowledgement from anybody else

Let wisdom fill it and let it roar 

Let the wall that was built to protect it fall

Let it find its place and stand proud in yourself 

And be in love for who he is and give the finger to the rest. 

The mind and your heart the main pieces to find your peace

Looking at different directions to fill its needs

What would be your state if they are constantly in war with each other

Fighting over the ego's needs, questioning fantasies over what one truly needs

How long would you stay in this pandemonium like state of resistance

While you're thirsting to find a break trying to find fulfillment 

But you're dying slowly to a war taking place quietly inside

Such a small space it takes both combined

Yet with a power so strong to completely wreck your life

If you aren't paying attention to it, what would be your fate

While you compromise for meaningless stuff in the outer world 

Your are sacrificing the peace that you truly crave

And this secret you guard in your heart living a silent lie

Hoping someday someone saves you from destroying your own life

The mind will find its way once the heart has healed

Living a life from the heart is wiser 

Because that's were compassion and passion flows abundantly

Let the union be done between these two lovers

Cause when the mind and heart stands together

There is no other force much stronger 

The mind the shield the warrior who acts

The heart the dreamer who leads and creates wonders through thought

The magic happens when they synchronise 

Time itself stops when they are creating together and their magic reflects in your eyes

Take care of you heart and your mind

This is where your fate lies

Heal and be set free from yesterday

And let your heart and mind work its magic today

A Beautiful Day

 

Turning over the page, starting up a new chapter 

Been evolving quietly through the years with some tears and some laughter

Wiping away the dirt and the hurt which no longer matters

Everyday is beginning to feel like a new day, it feels like happily ever after

Filled with surprises, when the sun rises and nothing seems to matter

With no aim that seems far away I'm loving every second of every hour

Sometimes you got to roll in the mud while your stuck in a rut

And figure yourself out through the dark

That seems to be eating away your spark

Life is like walking in circles, like being lost in a maze

While you're trying to decode how to fall back into better days

And to be that person who is free as the wind and being unstuck 

You got to learn to burn from the inside and find your own luck

Learn to walk with your demons and make peace with their destructive ways

While you are angry at the world and you rage

Fight those weaknesses they try to feed you and then show them the way 

Only then will you see through the bull shit and learn from the mistakes

What would be the price of your happiness if you do not fight

And when you are all bent and bruised with no glue or clue to fix what's been abused

Know this, that it's alright to feel defeat, your only human so just breathe

Try to understand that the heavens has it ways

It's a dance between pain and pleasure to re-direct you to your beautiful days

And once you get there you'll realise

That it was all the breaking and burning and waiting that made it worthwhile

Life will teach you to earn your glory times

So don't fret nor regret as your journey doesn't end tonight

When all the restlessness settles peace arrives

And when peace arrives  happiness you'll derive

All that rolling and burning has shaped a new person, mysterious and wise

Someone who see's beauty even when the day seems dry

Someone who feels complete and light as the air

Bright as the sun and clear from the despair

Someone who's found a rhythm to his life

The kind of rhythm that makes you dance till you die

A purpose, a reason and a new meaning you will find 

Just surviving is out of the question cause your here to shine

Beautiful days will follow such a person 

The one who's got unwavering confidence in him

The one that sees the light even when his demons haunt him 

The one that isn't afraid to roll in the muck and get dirty

The one that makes himself through his failures and wants no pity

The one that loves his life without any prize

As beautiful days are born in him and the rewards are just a sweet surprise

He clearly understands life is an adventure and he's fallen in love with it

A beautiful day is not far way as he believes it lives in him 

Turning over a new page I'm writing the next chapter

This will be the place I'm shinning brighter

Living beautiful days for the rest of my life

Fighting away bad old ways that just don't fit my life

Its going to be long drives and a weekly swim at the sea

Watching sunsets with a warm cup of tea

Looking at the mirror and seeing only possibilities

Of more beautiful days that's left in me

Not going to wait for anyone to catch up

I'm just going to dive in and make my own luck

Feels like life is calling out to me

Happiness seems like a new disease spreading in me

So why are you waiting, why don't you make your own days

That's bright and light with smiles all the way

One's that inspire others to awake 

And take advantage of their own power to create

Create powerful happy days

And if your confused or scared take my hand and I'll show you gladly

Together we'll end your sad days and we'd fly into the sky happily

There is nothing like letting go and taking control over your mistakes

Maybe this time you can create something so beautiful to embrace

And please stop blaming fate because it's you whose gotta change 

Every tomorrow is full of new surprises

If your willing to explore every time the sun rises

Stop chasing beautiful days and make them now

I'd rather see a smile today than a frown

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

Wish I Knew

 

Wish I knew I could have done this different 

Thought that the rules were put in place and I was restricted

Wish I knew the sky was the limit 

Was fooled by the limits set by others and remained rigid

Hate that I obediently followed it and never even once questioned it

If I was meant to follow or stand out and make a difference

Wish I knew that I could have resisted 

From following the herd that always seems restless

Wish I knew I had the choice 

And I too had a voice 

Wish I knew nothing is too late

Spend hours regretting and fretting with the hate

Wish I knew the hate was mine to conquer

Instead I stood pissed at the world for making my life full of horrors

Wish I knew that I was a fool trapped in my own self pity

No knowing the sky still awaits to be conquered

But I was too busy wrestling with the ghosts of my past and stuck in my own folly

Wish I knew that I had the control

But instead gave in to the chaos and broke my wings that were meant to take me home

Wish I knew that it takes many trials 

And you win only some and you accept life as it transpires

Wish I knew it is ok to fail

As long as you keep trying with an undying faith

Wish I knew you got to swim against the tide

And it's also ok to rest and drift with no purpose and still feel alive

Wish I knew there is no end to the pain

If pain doesn't motivate you then no prize will taste sweet and probably, you'll squander it in vain

Wish I knew you could try as many times as possible

You can always turn your life around so just relax and fail until you get it right

Wish I knew this is not a race

Chill a little maybe more and take life in a peaceful embrace

Wish I knew I could re-build myself

To the imagine of who is growing through life's twisted challenges

Wish I knew I could take all the time

To sit with loved ones and have a good time

Wish I knew that this life is to cherish

To laugh a lot and cry with the ones that makes my heart rich

Wish I knew I make a difference

Even when it seems like I'm drowning at a distance

Wish I knew I could be a better friend

Someone who extends his hand to pick one up when your beat down by life's tests

Wish I knew I could shut the doors

To the things that serve no purpose to me anymore

Wish I knew this is my life

And I could write it however I wanted it even if it's a tragedy or a comedy likewise

Wish I knew no tears need to be shed 

For no sorrow last forever and true love is to aim for instead

Wish I knew I can do this all over again

And the next time I can do better than my past haunting me through my mistakes

So many ways we can change our lives 

If only you knew your power is hidden deep down inside

But change, do we? Do we grow?

Or do we wake up old wishing we should have known

That one truth we all know inside, that falls to deaf ears and blind eyes

Now tell me isn't it a tragedy while we live just wishing away our lives 

 Knowing that you knew it all

Knowing what you wished you knew was known all this time

And it was you who just kept wishing and turning a blind eye 

 

Timeless River

 

Time flies, it flows like a river, and you are flowing in it never backwards but always forward no matter what the tide is and the current is. Time this mysterious river that ages us all and takes us away from the physical world after a finite amount, I wonder who decides how long we get to travel in its waters but one thing is fixed. We cannot travel forever and the journey will end one day. We start this journey with so much energy and as the body get's older the energy fades. Right from the beginning of time when human kind lived in the wilderness in small tribes. Humans spend their time to survive, in the beginning it was all about survival. All they did was hunt, so they could eat, find shelter so they could be safe and wore animal skin. We don't just live in the river of our own time, our river exists in different rivers which directly affects your individual river. For example, the Earth too has its river of time, and the earth has evolved drastically over time. It has been home to dinosaurs, and depending at what age of the world you belonged to, your river of time would have been directly influenced by the earth's river of time. We don't have the dinosaurs anymore that was at a different time in the earth's journey and in its current time and the influence it has in our lives, we humans have travelled a long way but yet we work for the basic things the early man did. Food, shelter and clothing, we go to work so we can have all that we require for our basic survival. But that's not it right, though basically it is the only things we need somewhere in the river of earth's time humans evolved to amazing breath taking extends. 

It's not just enough for us to survive we need to thrive, we need more than food, shelter or clothes, we need luxury, we need more in terms of everything, bigger houses, more money, recognition, status, success I could go on and on. Somehow it is not enough for man to have enough, cause enough seems to be never enough. Somehow without being in that league of having more you are going to fall back in the line of society's hierarchy. In other words if you need to get your ass kissed or seem relevant you need to have more. But yet we evolve, we evolve and we don't even notice it. Maybe the earth too has an ultimate purpose to play in the universe. But do we really even want to know what is the earth's purpose when we struggle to understand our own. Meantime we are stuck in the survival process that has got so complicated since the early man we have completely fallen out of sync with the planet. We have fallen into an illusion of a possession driven life and somehow accumulating possessions is the modern man's ultimate goal. We have just become hoarders, we have reduced ourselves to collecting worldly possessions and it has become so normal it will be madness if you thought anyway else. I guess there is nothing wrong in having or wanting to have and experience wealth and having all the possessions one could think off. But then concluding that all this is what defines you or life is the part I'm talking about. 

Not having any messiah assigned to save us and the teaching of the old and ancient times fading, are we losing the grip of reality? Are we lost in the greed for power, money, and success. Have we made sacrifices for the wrong reasons or have these reasons become the new standard for survival that we forget to be humane. The truth is we are all so deeply affected we don't stop to think and instead feed all our energy to running the rat race hoping one day we find fulfilment like once when we were children and in turn we feed these survival skills to the younger generation thinking without it they would be doomed but in actuality we are dooming them by just teaching them to survive in a way we are tying to escape from. The truth is we don't need anything to thrive, we don't need to stress ourselves to the point of madness to find happiness. We just need to understand that the things we are truly looking for are free and there is no price required to be paid. What we all truly want is to dance through life, not matter if it is a thunderstorm or sunshine we are experiencing in our physical reality. What we want is to celebrate life and to live life each moment being completely present and aware of each breath you take and being content by the fact you have truly and joyous lived that moment. What we want is not plan and wait for the experience to come but live that experience each day until it comes true. What we truly want is to be surprised by life each day and lead fulfilled lives in spite of all the things that seem to go wrong or not your way. 

What if you could be the person that takes you to a place within yourself which you thought that never existed. A place that can give you a new level of clarity, focus and drive to be who you truly were meant to be. Being alive is just being aware of your breath, cause that is the only way you know you are alive. Think about it maybe you'd wake up worrying, or wake up desiring so many things, but, not even worry or desire can exist if your not alive. And to be full of life and live each moment to its fullest you cannot be worried all the time nor be a prisoner of your desires, you need to understand the gift of life first to be truly alive, the fact that you're just breathing must mean something to you. And the day it means everything, that day you would begin to realise what it means to be full of life. A profound moment where you are set free from the cycles and man made madness and routines. A point where you see life not from the living or survival point of view fed into your head since birth, but rather from the a point to just live and be you. An effortless sense of being you, clear in the head and focused, full of love in the heart and surplus of energies all driving you to be whatever you wish to be with no regard to possessing anything but rather just experiencing, contributing and supporting to sustain that life in and around you. An abundant being that doesn't need to hoard or hold on to things cause you're always evolving to better versions of you that is already abundantly rich in every way you can fathom.

It is in that realisation that truly sets you free from everything even yourself that seems to be chained to so many things binding you. Be quiet, silence yourself so you hear that inner voice. True growth happens in silence and it does not seek an audience. True growth isn't looking for approval but liberation, liberation from the noise to a peace and quiet where the world is under your grasp and happiness a choice rather than a pursuit. It's in the quiet moments transformation happens where you have the ability to transcend to a new version  of you that seemed impossible to achieve. For this you got to stop running and stand still and from the stillness of your being you will begin to live and enjoy your life in every breath you take living an effortless life riding the waves cruising through the river of time effortlessly. Somehow making your experience here like you were on a timeless river. Because in your stillness time flows through you and in the mad man's world you run behind it. 

A Thousand Pieces

Thousand pieces lay on the floor
Each piece was meant to fit onto another

A thousand-piece puzzle was about to be uncovered
I wonder what the final image is
The suspense held behind each piece was hard to dismiss
I looked at the game boards cover
No clues, no image, all left out to the player 
To figure out and discover

 
A thousand pieces lay on the floor
A thousand pieces of me all broken and waiting to be restored
I do not know how I have lost my faith
All I remember was falling through a haze
I thought that I could figure out this maze
But somewhere between those dark alleys
I got lost and what I lost I cannot describe nor explain
 
A thousand pieces lay on the floor
Where do I start this puzzle?

How do I start to explore?
In which way should I begin 
With no clue in mind everything seemed like randoms digits 

With no equation to decipher the final image
Those thousand pieces seemed like a puzzle within a puzzle
But through those challenges I begun

And slowly and steadily piece by piece I connected them one by one
 
A thousand pieces lay on the floor
I thought I knew who I was, but I misunderstood him a long time ago
Now he exists in pieces looking for himself
Trying to figure out who he’s truly destined through these tests
He’s shedding his fear and the control
He’s believing in himself
Taking back his power that he once let go
He is understanding now he was looking at himself the wrong way
The thousand pieces of him he’s re-constructing in its truest way
 
A thousand pieces of the puzzle now reduced
I’ve managed to assemble them in groups
The picture is vague but looks promising
Looks like an angel
Think he’s looking over a fountain
The mystery of the final image began to unfold
Now the ease to match the pieces started to take hold
What took a lot of time in the beginning to figure out
Began to become easy as more pieces found its spot
 
A half formed new self of me roam around
Still looking at the balance of the pieces that needs figuring out
I’m building each part of me stronger than ever before
This time no kryptonite will take me down to the floor
Nor will any clown that try to break my spirit
I’m building myself such that I’m unbreakable to any limit
My heart’s in the right place leading me high
The pain is motivating me, bringing me back to life
A new imagine of me is forming
And to these changes I’m reforming
 
A few pieces remaining of the thousand 

So close to completion and left with no confusion
The mystery behind the final image has found it's solution
The thousand-piece journey has nearly been travelled
The angel hovers above the fountain
Trumpets are sounding from the mountains
A ray of light from the skies all magically fitting within those thousand different lies
And with this one last piece I’ve completed the puzzle 

Now a thousand pieces reveal together, what they couldn't individually, but was destined to uncover
 
I guess every piece of you should fall in its right place
How else would you know the true you behind the veil?
While you’re building yourself you are blind
Your filled with self-doubt and live in fear or flight
But slowly through this chaos, what we call life
You must start believing in yourself and you must put the pieces of you right
That day you will see the miracle of you that was hiding behind plain sight
A being so graceful that was trapped somewhere in the idea you thought of you was right
And suddenly now it is so different because you began to see your truest version 
 
From a thousand pieces I have become one
And I’m still just a small piece under the sun
The sun itself is a dot in the cosmic mind
I wonder who sees the grand picture of us all from above the galactic skies
Is he also putting together a thousand pieced puzzle?
I wonder what the final image he is working to

I wonder if he's aware of the picture he is assembling for me and you
Am I just a piece in his puzzle? While I'm living through all this hustle and bustle
While I sit here putting my pieces right building my life
I wonder what my piece does in his puzzle, what plans he has for my life
 
A thousand pieces lay on the floor
Each piece has a promise and he knows what needs to unfold
Some where he’s going to fit you in this life
Some where he’s destined you to shine his light
Nobody can comprehend these cosmic schemes
But that one piece you are out of a thousand
Has a story as powerful as can be
And one day when everything fits right
You’re going to be that one piece that brings meaning to a thousand lives

Voices in my head (Star Light Intro)

 I need to do something awesome, I need to do it now.
Haven't got a clue what it is but the feeling is profound.
The unknown action I'm trying to find. 
An action that would open myself to unbelievable accomplishments in life .
I thought and thought and years passed by and nothing brilliant came up in my mind.
I have no reason why I'm on this mission, I just know I need to do it without anyone's permission.
I've never been so lost, I've never been this blind and I've never felt more alive.
Arranging words in sentences to describe my situation.
You might be reading this without no indication.
I hope your opinions won't land me in a complication.
I met my biggest enemy, I'm just his  own reflection.
Trapped in a reality which I find hard to break through.
Bored by the routine from which I need a change too.
So I dreamed and dreamed and left my body behind.
Now my body needs to catch up or my mind would be living a fantasied lie.
I experimented with everything and I still can't find the right life.
Need to do something which I was born to do, Something which I love and want to do.
A vacant space living in me, a space that needs this something to complete me.
Life has its way taking you to places, it has its way of showing you unfamiliar faces, who end up giving you mixed experiences.  
Running out of words and patience my mind takes me into another contemplation.
Lost and unaware of my own strengths, my life is teaching me to find myself again.
Sooner or later things are going to turn alright.
The only thing you can choose is to believe it or deny.